anxiety and anticipation

days seem to be long-winded. life seems to be full of awaitings. anxiety is growing within me. anticipation for that something to happen seems to be impossible and is taking forever. i keep holding on and letting go. i'm decaying, mentally. there's no way out. nor any way to be in it. i'm not in control. in fact, i can never be in control. it feels so powerless. what have i done. what have i not done.

life can be miserable. it can be a blissful one. it all depends on that split second of choice that you make. which one do i choose to have. it all depends on that split second of the time in my entire life.

Singapore trip 6-8 Aug 07

I couldn't believe my hidden shopaholic ability! Never knew i could spend so much in just 3 days.

As i've promised myself and my hubby, Singapore trip was a great stress relief for both of us. We went on the second honeymoon after half year getting married. wait. Did i just say HALF YEAR? already? Hubby was so romantic.
6th Aug was our half year wedding anniversary. He was full of cheeky ideas. We stayed in the 5-star hotel of Meritus Madarin Hotel located right at the centre of the Orchard Road in Singapore. The hotel was supposed to surprise me with bouquet of flowers on the bed and so on on the arrival of our hotel check in but it didnt appear that way and it was all due to hotel management's fault. Anyway, it's the heart and thoughts that matter. I love you lao gong.

See? =P

We planned to visit Sentosa but then it is under heavy renovation to create a resort soon. In 2-3 years time maybe. In addition to the super hot and humid weather, we gave up the plan and roamed in Vivo City for the whole day.

On the second day, we spent another whole day shopping along the all-time-famous Orchard Road. The great Singapore sale just ended around the end of July and we were a step late to join them. Anyway, doesn't really matter as i didn't plan to buy a lot. The whole trip was mainly to release stress and take a break. In Singapore, there's nothing much you can do. If you're not there for business purpose, then as a visitor, you can only enjoy the shopping spree that you should have expected even before you step on the land. Orchard road is already too much for visitors to buy all they need and all they don't need as well. Too much distractions and attractions.

On the third and last day on the land, added to my collections is this LV bag. Frankly, I never used to like branded stuffs but i didn't realised that i've bought these few bags so far. This is a very expensive hobby i would say. Luckily, i live in Kuching. Not KL nor Singapore nor Europe where these places would surely turn me into a legal, aggressive shoppaholic.

pre-vacation chores

At last, another break for me and hubby. We will go somewhere near as calendar is not giving us a long school break or anything close to that. Plus, the tuition centre is still open for tuition on the Sat, which it's supposed to be a holiday, dont know for what reason, on the day. So, i need to off myself and hubby needs to off himself as well from any work commitments for the next three days. Totally OFF.



But again, my mind still could not put the works down even til the last minute before we board the flight tonite and ended up I'm preparing the teaching plan for this coming Sat. I'll be back on Wed nite and i have another 2 full days but i just feel that i need to at least start off and if possible, finish off the teaching plan first. at least. I still have a lot of markings to do and it's endless i tell you. Thinking about it would make me headache already.

I promise my hubby and myself that this time, i must have a good short yet meaningful vacation and that means VACATION and BREAK. Not like the last two months when i still need to pack all the report cards of students to go together with me back home to Perth. Two weeks were not enough then.

Okay. Getting myself back to work now. Or else, i'll just dream for a good vacation in Singapore tonight in hotel with all my works scattering on the bed with me.

Happy 3-days holiday~Safe and sound all of you out there ^_^

Today is an OK day

hehehe...today i feel alrite. I feel better actually. I had a lot of mood swings and i believed that happen to all the females out there. Thanks for DH to be supportive, loving and caring for me.

Now, out of the norm, i am going to post some very random stuffs i just found in my computer. Some masterpieces done by others instead of me. i have no talent or watsoever that could be shown off. At times, i really admire the talents people have and with their hands, they can make the world seems to be a much more beautiful and meaningful place to live in.

Taa daa, i now present to you my mom in law's masterpiece:


CUTE OR NOT??!?!?!?? I found them too cute to be put into mouth and munch them..i did eat one in the end though..couldn't resist the pao...mainly=P

And, this is my sister, Karen's version (sorrie mek, couldn't help but to post them up for you..they're VERY cute too..in a way):


The fatter version...which is still cute right? People always say pig is cute..so i guess a fat tortoise is cute too. ^o^

Another masterpiece from sister:


I am so proud of her. We used to only knit scarves when winters were almost hitting..like two months before. Since when she advances herself knitting this mobile phone pocket...i dont know. It was so well done that i had to rub my eyes twice looking at it, flipping it back and forth trying to look for any flaws i could possibly find..hahaha.You're good! *thumbs up*

i think she will strangle me when i go back to Perth next time but dont care. Post it up first:


i make the size smaller already..comparing to the others. ^_^

Now, bomb me lor.... X_X"

Little changes

I haven't done any update for the month July due to some reasons.

Firstly, I had "half quitted" my job as an English teacher. I am now teaching only 2 classes instead of 4 in a week. I am happy with the change of course but i'm not sure if it's a good idea. I've became a slacker since then. I can never finish marking students' exercises pending from 3 weeks ago...I was and am not self motivated.

Apart from that, i really appreciate to have regain my freedom from my stupid contracted agreement so much now!!! Another 4 long months to go before it really ends...I am waiting...

Another thing is that...i'm feeling sick and sian and faint and frustrated and everything ON and OFF. That's part of my reasons being such a slacker. I cant put myself together to do my chores and whatever that i need to do. I feel lack of energy and motivation, again.

Hopefully, i'll feel better soon. I need my life back.

Fear

so true. so real. from deep within. for that moment, my body was trembling and i felt so faint. at that moment, i thought i would have to say byebye to one of my fingers.

one of my poor fingers had a very bad slice today not from knife, scissors nor anything that u could think of. a fish hates me. it fully used its scales and mercilessly sliced my flesh into halves.

i thought of taking the picture when i took off the bandage but i dont want to put you off from my blog. i took one with the bandage on. believe me. after i trimmed off the excessive flesh near the wound, it looks like a sea cliff now. deep sea cliff. the crack is putting-myself-off big.






那該死的魚!

a total mac supporter we are

Hubby got a new mac in addition to our mac desktop today.It's so cute.Whitish. Small.Elegant.So feminine look.Macbook it is.I believe mac is way better than PC.I am not a racist.I do have a laptop myself.So problematic.Now and then pop out virus updates.Anti-virus updates.After closing programs, screen freeze asking to send report. =_=" I think deep inside me, i started to hate windows.

Mac meets my need for being so helpful and non-problematic most of all.


I enjoy the light from that 1/4 bitten apple.


Love the keypad as well.So clear cut.Clean & tidy. Leave no space for dust and food drops.

*Thumbs up*