Fret..or not

Just like all other ladies out there, I would never want to see myself goes out of shape. But i have to let it go this time round. It's a sacrifice to make. But, fret not!

I have successful histories of losing weights! Tons of weights! Who should i fear?! Wuahahaha~~~

When i was near the end of my teenage years, i moved to Australia to further my studies. Soon before i realised, i developed this eating disorder (in a way that i ate without much self-control) and my weights and shape rocketed high, touching the 60+kgs figures. With my height at 158cm, that's considered way too obese and it wasn't right at all. I looked round and resembled freshly baked cakes out of oven. Face=round, body=round, legs=all round! Nothing was rounder than me. And the thing was, i didn't realise how round i was until i saw a photo which was taken at my friend's backyard. It was awful!! I fret! Fret the only soul out of me. How could i eat and become that F.A.T all of sudden!

Then, i realised winter increases my body's metabolism rate and accelerates speed of burning calories and fats and hence, it makes me go hungry much faster. Then, i indulged in eating! How to control that? One needs to eat when one goes hungry. How to survive the hunger? Especially during the night. It was a nightmare. Even though i did realise it in the end, i just gave in every time i saw food in front of me. It took years to get myself in right eating order.

It was time i attended uni and with the help from tutes and spending most of the days in uni, i refrained myself from eating. I admit this is definitely not a healthy solution to slim down but i survived. I began with 2 pieces of bread and a cup of water in the morning and finished my day eating nothing else. Dinner time, i ate little portion of rice and lots of vegies and totally cut down on meat. I sipped on the yummy soup instead. I lost my weights in 2 months from 60+ to 56kgs. I was addicted to losing weight when i see the tremendous result! It was addictive. Gradually, i increased my food intake little by little and being whole day in uni attending classes, it helped to slim me down further to 51kgs. From then on, i maintained the weights til 3 years ago.

I met my bf (now promoted to hubby) and we enjoyed our foods of course! My weights went up again. A little this time to 54kgs. The extra kilos did show a little on my face and body since i'm the fleshy type. And just 3 months before my wedding, i went off to slimming centre, paid that money and got the professionals to do the job for me. All i need to do was to lie down, relax/doze off and by the time session ended, i felt "lighter"! Ha. And of course, thanks to the stress and all the cards, wedding arrangements and preparation we DIY-ed ourselves, i lost weight further to 47kgs. The lightest time in my whole life i would say. LOL! I havent seen that figure for some time now.

After months into marriage, the idea of pregnancy sunk in. Realising i didn't have enough fat for a good chance of conceiving (you have to have 24% of fats and above in your body in order to get pregnant), i need to put on weights again. After so much hard work..by the slimming professionals. They all gone down the drain. And the $$ too. Pfft.

There you go. My weight histories. I would say i'm quite proud with all the plummeting and rocketing of the figures throughout the years. At least, i know i'm able to achieve what i want with my strong desire for it. Perseverance is the key!

Now, what to fret when my body holds mostly liquid and fats that are going to wear off after delivery? Thanks to hubby for the treadmill in da house! And, thank goodness for the pool too! I'll put my determination to test after 6 months from now on.